Along with the end of December 2017 ▶magdaleneanne.blogspot.com◀ will stop existing, and ▶magdaleneanne.com◀ will be born. And only with such a www address you will be able to find me.

I hope, that with own name, building the private label I will be even stronger than so far. This change will be a milestone and filling the sails which will bring a lot good, and above all will let progress. Maybe it will be a step, to the greatest success? Who knows, I'm not going to give up, and the perseverance is bringing the biggest fruits. 

Sometimes there are moments in the life, when clutching the head is nothing. When air is so thick that it's hard to breathe. Sometimes to not to go completely mad it's necessary to simply dissociate yourself. Not to think. Not to overthink. To concentrate only on what you love, but about the rest just to forget, as if stopped existing, as everything around ordinarily wasn't. I know, it sounds strange, but in some situations such an attitude is essential to live and to survive. If somebody never felt, that a second or two more in such sea of thoughts and incidents, and will explode - will never also understand what I am writing here about and I'm trying to hand over. Sometimes despite everything - it's worthwhile simply, for own good to close thoughts, to dissociate yourself from everything what makes feel bad, to devote yourself to what you love, give it time, to open heart and let it guide... And wait till every cloud will have a silver lining...

Sometimes it's difficult. Sometimes really difficult But hey. After all nobody never said it will be easy. Nobody made such promise. A life isn't sugar cotton, but the constant fight for survival, happiness and surviving. One time ascents, one time falls. Such course of things, absolute springboard, roller coaster. But even and to be in a centre of the biggest mess, it's necessary to have in oneself this something, not to give up, to remember these happiest moments in the life and to fight with all strength to make them as often as possible and as more as possible. There are also other people affecting what happens around, which many times are toxic, because unfortunately a lot it's also impossible to avoid. Appear so which want to mess up, which are causing havoc, bad atmosphere, but one is forbidden - to let such characters influence to us, to our personality, plans, self-esteem, especially a self-esteem! And it is the most important, most difficult ability and quite a challenge. It's impossible to predict the life, is never fully certain and known what will happen. But if something bad happens, one large mill which isn't possible in any way to understand, it's always necessary to stay strong, to believe in self, to remember about it, what most beautiful, to aspire to the better and to be above all else. It's never worthwhile letting to be provoked, to lose power, but first of all it's forbidden to doubt in self and in the better future. Because the future and the self-confidence, these are two huge investments. There's just smile needed, to remind about what and whom you care the most, and world already looks better.

It comes across a lot of obstacles on its way. Many times it's being exposed to huge and supernaturally difficult attempts. It forbears conspiracies and intrigues of others. But true, pure and this only one - will survive everything. Accident? Destiny? As you like. Any names. As for me - accidents don't exist. And at least already a long time ago stopped to exist. Destiny... Also good - I didn't believe in this. Chemistry? Maybe. Act of God? Good joke. So... What?

For one stupid inscription, connection of words, nonsensical thoughts, however for other it can be one or few words which give the everyday dose of power, motivate for action and remind that I am someone. I can something. I can a lot. I can act. I can fulfil the dream and catch happiness. I can and I am. I am and I can. Somebody can not believe that such a jigsaw of words can mean something, can give something, but such a small mere trifle really is able much. Myself I have my personal motto which is the light at the end of the tunnel for me, when I'm falling down, when I'm losing the faith, when my power for action is starting spilling into dust. Normal, one, small, straight word which for the strangers is empty and worthless - for me is a spark and a power with the great importance. Like nothing, but gives so a lot, like no one else could expect. One word which in dark moments reminds me who I am and how I really am. It's reminding me about me. It is me. With this one slogan I'm going through life already for a few long years and I feel well with it. Motto is something what gives great power and a lot of benefits, and most importantly - helps to be myself. It uplifted me, justified my values, my means, repeatedly it saved me from the comeback of the older, previous version of me , and affected the progress of the current awareness. I recommend for everyone, really. Such a small spark, and is shining so brightly.

Facebook. One of the most popular, if not the most popular social media in the world. The generality of people adores it. Various people love this virtual nothingness enough that many times would do everything for this and for likes and comments, frequently of stranger persons - would let cut themselves up alive. It's some paranoia. Paranoia which still is spreading and is gaining the more and more big dash. Younger and older, women and men, on fb and this kind of social media are pouring out entire their life. They're giving all their data, important places, addresses, dates, often not sparing also bringing spicy details into the limelight, which looking at it logically world never should see. Because so we have a climate. Everything must be artificial, pompous and for effect. Everything only up to it, if only "friends" could see. So what that I will resign the privacy and instead of dealing with something more practical I'll spend hours online every day to voluntarily or playing hardball get as most as possible likes and comments. After all - hello, people, look everyone, likes will show you what a super man I am, because nothing else is important, the number of hearts under my photo is an indicator of my value and basta! Well, I don't have words for the further comment of such an attitude and behaviours. Unfortunately, this way the shallow thinking stopped having an age limits already. Mass mentality like the avalanche is rolling into the bottom. I'm only wondering, whether such people are aware of this, that with likes and with comments in social media rather won't feed their families, won't build the future, and the wisdom also won't fall into their mind. Looking on that's all from the side, a lot of times I had impression, that something with me is not so, because attention attention! I don't care about likes, I'm not fawning to comments, on my Facebook profile I have less than one hundred friends which I'm regularly updating and removing, in order not to have an unnecessary spam, but photos, if appear at all, then occasionally, once maybe twice a year. The same concerns every other social media with the blog including. Even here I decide to publish 1/10 of written comments, because as can be seen I differ from the majority of the population so much, that I value neatness, what valuable, rather than worthless load of the spam.

The most beautiful feeling in the world. With each passing day more and more strong,connecting two persons with inexplicable magic. Love. Me and Him, Him and Me = US. We love each other. It is most important. And nobody or nothing can change it. We are only for us, we are entire world for each other. No words are able to describe power which connects us. M&Π = 

Changes are coming. Intense changes. Soon a great, most beautiful and most important day of my life will come. Something incredible, it's really positively hard for me to believe it. In very soon time everything will change, nothing will be as before. Fear and joy in one. But this, amazing and perfect feeling is most important, like nothing else. Heaven. I'm so much pleased, so happy. I'm looking forward! 

People expect respect. They expect treating them with the dignity. They want to be appreciated, liked, perhaps even adored, but certainly don't want to be kicked around. For oneself everything, requirements grow day by day higher than the Himalaya, and as more they expect for themselves, as worse they treat other. However the hugest paradox is the fact that as more meanly people treat other people, as better treatment they require for themselves. So damn! How long will it last? What you give, this you get! If man you think that you can anybody, even a person half a life younger than you, to treat like the biggest piece of rubbish and to demand the respect from her towards your person, but humiliating, aggression etc will stay without the consequence, then believe me, more wrong you cannot be. You are in such a great mistake, as all universe huge is. And don't delude yourself, the justice will catch you, you won't run away from it. Ill stereotypes, sick thinking: older can oppress, younger must respect, after all older is a lord and master, and younger can be bullied, because of course these are such normals as the respiration... Lack of words. It's like kind of age, blood ties, or professional positions conditioned who has to be respected, and who can be smothered, dragged through the mud. So not. Everyone is equal. Everyone is a man, everyone has the same rights and everyone deserves respect. The child, the parent, the grandson, the grandfather, the great-grandfather, the two-year-old and the centenarian. The chairman, the messenger and the farmhand. The healthy and the ill. Everyone, irrespective of how many years has, which sex is, the origin or the status. If you don't give this respect, you hurt somebody, you deserve precisely the same. You deserve for experience it firsthand, maybe then you will learn. What an exemplar you are giving with yourself - the same expect for yourself. You aren't God to let yourself to do everything limitless. Remember it.

Maybe it's something human, maybe no, maybe it's something normal, and maybe abnormal... At least it's likely that more often or more rarely is meeting everyone... Today... It caught me. And really, it's not something pleasant - is able to lead to tears. Pure, overfilled with emotions and pain tears. Gallons of tears. And I don't know what's worse: these really helpless questions:  "For what? Why? For what do I exist? Who I actually am? If that all has a sense? If any time my dreams will come true?"... Or billions of swarming thoughts, painfully pinching the mind, the heart and the soul... Or maybe there's no worse and better... After all first and second is an evil. First and second is bringing sadness, suffering, feeling of the nothingness... First and second is leading to the shorter or longer sadness... Doubt is one of the worst things which can meet... Emptiness. Nothing. Suspension. Loneliness in myself. And tears. A lot of tears.

Past, for one is simply a past time, for other  something beautiful to what have a sentimental attachment, whereas for other is the nightmare which is coming back at nights, doesn't let lightly look ahead. There are also people which from various reasons still are coming back to this past, are attached like with ropes, chained like with shackles, thinking about it and aren't able to break free ahead. In every case so: stop! Unimportant what cause is, let's take a deep breath, relax, let's focus on something pleasant, spend the time with family and friends, love, what we like and let's stop living with what was. Break free. Let's stop looking into the back, just look at what is, what will come, because what in the past already happened it's over and done, was and will never come back! So leave the contemplation, because it in excess can only harm, limit, put into a cage, to destroy mood in the present time, or even revive painful memories. But for what? For what that all? After all we are worth the good life and the frame of mind, so let's not let something what a long time ago came off to history destroy something what can bloom as the beautiful flower, if only we give it the chance. Really, although each of us is carrying on own back the different, lighter or heavier accumulated experience, nobody deserved it, in order to something or somebody from the past, whatever it is, destroyed the here and now and the future for him! Everyone deserves smile and happiness!

In spite of many passages and experience I am happy, and you? ;)

Good luck :)

Now I know. I know that I am where I will stay forever, in the place which I love and which I'll change for none other. Never. Here I want to be, here my life is building, here's my home, my real piece of world.  Here I'm happy, I feel safe and my dreams come true. It's my future, my home, me.  This is my love. Missing element, without which I feel like suspended in the emptiness. Now I am myself. I got harbour. 

Greece - my heaven. Forever.