Since I remember, I've been a type of the human with ambitions, with plans, putting ahead myself huge and only huge aims which at all costs tried to reach. But you know what? Now I made aware that this is not this way. I realized that it's not only about it, not only to see this, what's far. I found motivation in even these most trivial details, the most trivial successes, in the smallest achievements which I even didn't notice before, completely not appreciate it. And now? Now even a silly, nothing-meaning St Andrew's Eve prophecy, the ordinary play is able to give me a motivation and the positive energy to action, and such a thought twinkling somewhere deep inside "And maybe, maybe it will just be better and I'll get by?". Every consecutive survived day, every next well-done task, every next discovery, every next step forward give me strength. Give me motivation, in order to by getting little goals, make my way to the Mount Everest of life. I got up. And I'm acting, working, in order to achieve what I want. And in opposition to my previous attitude - now I don't even suppose the option like "no", don't accept something like that, as "may not". Because it will be. It must be. Because I want it, I'm aspiring to it, believe in it, it's my purpose and I will reach it. Even and through tears, but I'll achieve. Because after all nobody said it's supposed to be easy. Important that it's effectively and finished with the success. And it will be, I hold on to it. There are no longer impossibles. No longer.
You know it? You know people who offend, abuse, humiliate, slate, do everything only in order to lead to tears, to break down, to destroy the self-assessment and the self-confidence? Yeah exactly, they do it for this only! For making someone feel worse! Only to destroy someone's sense of well-being! If only to bring someone's faith to the wreck in into own strength and the value! Because they're envious and deceitful people with the hurt, luxuriant ego, without own life, for which hate to other is the only food! Therefore mustn't undergo them! They're poking out for somebody, because can't say anything good about themselves! They'll hurl insults, because want to feel more appreciated! And as more this person will break down, the more they will be pleased! So head high up, breast ahead and for the attempt! Don't let them achieve their goal. We mustn't care with them, we have our value, so know it, appreciate and not let debase ourselves. We are strong, so use it and be bulletproof. We can afford it. Such parasites want our tears, so let's give them a broad smile which will be the biggest punishment which exists for them. It will burn such a hole in their ego, like in vampires the sun ;)
We live in the constant run, in a hurry, in the total amok, still rushing to something, searching endlessly not knowing of what, from target to target, as programmed machines without emotions, dreams and breaking points. We are doing something, because this way it's necessary. Because other want this way. Because world "expects" of this. Or else how will it look like, if we rebel. What people will say. Only whether actually we do it for ourselves? Whether really at least a bit we want what happens with us daily automatically, "because it must be this way"? No? After all. We live under such a pressure, that most often word "no" is stopping generally speaking exist, because.
Or else somebody will get cross. Or else somebody will be offended. Or else I will lose the friend. Or else people will be speaking ill of me. Or else the atmosphere will deteriorate. Or else I will be "this worse"... It's possible to give examples without ending, but everyone knows, what situations in the life met him and are meeting for the reason indeed unwelcome amongst the considerable part of society, opposition. However we have choice. Or to be a robot, machine working up to the dictation of the top-down imposed, irrational belief "because this way need to be", or as the Eminem's "Not Afraid" song says - not to give up, to rebel against what burns us down, destroys, what we don't want at all, but somehow we are being forced to it. Let, that I will quote the quotation which can be great as the mantra for persons with low self-esteem (although who knows Eminem, probably also knows this quotation by heart), and to remind that we live for ourselves - "When I say I'ma do something I do it, I don't give a damn what you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world" . Don't be afraid to say "quite" for toxic life and let's start fighting for own, to do what is making us happy, what make us feeling fulfilled and valuable. The most important, don't care about the world, because we are doing it for ourselves. For ourselves, no for strangers and for what people will say. It's necessary to believe yourself and your power. Don't care about this, what other people say about us, just fix our own purposes, and we will get by and be happy. Good luck :)
